Ich wünsche dir beides.

Ja, du hast recht. Es hat keinen Sinn, nach dem Warum zu fragen. Aber viele machen es halt trotzdem. Ich wollte nur wissen, wie du so drauf bist.

Kann man irgendwie dazu beitragen, dass du eine schöne Zeit hast?

Ya dinguses, This was a great ama and clearly resonating with a ton of people.

>Ask Me Anything topics fall into two categories:

>Something uncommon that plays a central role in your life.

Gee, this topic doesn't meet this rule at all. While cancer is terribly common, having this aggressive, full body cancer at such a young age and knowing you only have a few weeks left is not common and clearly a topic of great interest to readers.

Did you try to read Stoic philosophers?

Marc Aurel and Seneca!

With their wisdom it is possible to cope with your situation.

dum spiro spero

(Solange ich atme, hoffe ich)

man this right here is why I only RARELY go to this site and hate every visit.
my god can you people have a crumb of humanity even just fucking once?

Fax? Such modern tool they offer to you? I still need my old typewriter to communicate with DRV and the BG :)

You know, I don’t want to condolence you, say it stinks, you know that way better than I do. But that your body is so weakened and such, yea, this isn’t ideal for goodbye trip, though I would have wished you one sincerely.

Trotzdem alles Gute! Ich hoffe für dich auf ein Wunder, obwohl alles gegen dich scheint.

Eine angenehme Zeit - und einen angenehmen Tod :) Hört sich jetzt evtl hart an, du und ich haben sicher mindestes zwei Sachen gemeinsam - wir sind geboren. Wir (auch du) wirst sterben. Die zwei Sachen sind sicher :)

Ich sehe nicht, warum ich mir Gedanken machen sollte? Was ändert es? Jeder kann Krebs kriegen. Hodentumor ist, glaub ich ,sogar der 'häufigste' unter Männern? Wenn es Umweltgifte sind - wären es dann nicht auf einmal viel viel viel mehr Fälle, die jetzt auftreten würden?

Fakt ist, ich sterbe - Fakt ist Krebs ist ein Arsch - Ich konnte nicht mehr tun. Darauf bin ich stolz :) Ich hab alles versucht :) Auf ein paar letzte schöne Wochen :)

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You will not end up on the street in any EU/EES nation because of these kinds of illnesses. Might not live as before if the economy takes a toll on you, but there is a safety net keeping you under a roof.

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My brain does not have to cope anymore - my dead is 100%. There is nothing that can be done anymore. My life was good - i feel at peach - and i get to try the good drugs now - without having to be afraid of addicted :D

You should really get into opiates before it is too late (too late as in building up resistance to them and not get the buzz) since you do not have to suffer any consequences from withdrawal.

Sorry to hear that. Was it a seminoma or non-seminoma? I'm curious cause I just got done with treatment myself and the doctor told me to see him in 3 months, even though I skipped through most of my bleomycine course (doctor's orders, fucking thing fried my lungs), it sounds like you went through so much more and still got worse, is there a reason or a theory as to why?

:) I'm getting not tired to explain this to people i hope this makes sense.

• With cancer you CANNOT fight - you endure medical threadments that destroy you. But you hope it destroys the cancer faster than you. I know people mean well when they say 'keep' fighting. But the semantics here CAN be interpreted as 'You just have to do more! Fight harder' This is just not true and not fair to people who endure such treatments.

I'm not one for miracles i'm realist. If i get healed then there is a explanation why and how it worked.

Life is not fair or unfair - life happens.

Interesting, and I don't know the answer, I'm just a fellow American who was researching it (because of this ama) right as I saw your question so I thought I'd post that link / tidbit.

But I concur, it's horrible how one of our first thoughts about health as Americans is "this is going to bankrupt me" . And according to the conclusion from that German study ...

>Distress and reduced quality of life due to financial problems seem to amplify the burden that already results from a cancer diagnosis and treatment.

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How easy / hard is it to find a good hospital? Are there long treatment queues before you can begin therapy?

Have they told you what it will feel like? Or how long you have to live? Not knowing how soon it is coming or how it would feel would make me anxious.

Regardless, do you have time to knock anything of your bucket list? Anything we can help with?

Thank you for the reply.

“Uniquely fucked”

A level of backhanded exceptionalism only we can admire.

Hey man, this sucks, sorry it’s happening to you.

I’m wondering if they had removed your testicle w the bump instead of leaving it, would that have stopped the same type of cancer from spreading 2 years later?

Wish you happy days, enjoy what your can buddy, and take care.

That was beautiful. Thank you for your words. I think a LOT of people never find their person before they leave this world. I remember times in my life when I was moving on to the next step, and I came to the realization that no matter how long I would try to hold onto that time in my life, it would end no matter what I do and the time would never be enough. Doing the best you can with the time you have is important. I hope we can all live as full a life as you with whatever time we have left.

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I imagine you have been doing a lot of reflecting. What is the thing/memory that you are most proud of?

But I’d also be curious to hear what’s something you are least proud of? Or any regrets of not doing?

Boo. Yeah looks like only non-medical companies still manufacture it. It has shown efficacy in metastatic testicular disease though. Also prostate cancer and Ewing sarcoma.

You are amazing. Kudos! I suffer from cancerphobia and how you handle this and describe really shifts my perspective. Thank you and congratulations to how you live your life and how you face the end of it.